Tuesday, January 31

17th Jan 2012- Memoirs of the man of my life

January 2012 will pass us, and it has been a very tough month for my family.

This family portrait was taken on last Eid-Fitr 2011. In years before, we had taken family portrait, but there was never a complete set of us in a single picture until recent Eid-Fitr. If this picture is translated into a set of puzzle, the most significant and the centre piece of the puzzle is now missing, that is my late father.

 As I mentioned in this entry , my father, Aboh was diagnosed as diabetic last two years, but he was badly sick a few months back. Worse than usual fever, that seeing him that sickful, I have the scary thought in mind that he might leave us all, for good.

Aboh used to be a very strong man, all his life, I mean all my life. He cycled with his bicycle all his life. I still remember one day when I was so little,he hold my hand when we crossed the road.I still remember the sence of security that I felt in his grip, but it turned otherwise when he was sick. When I brought him to the hospital, I hold an umbrella over us, and he hold my hand, now not for my security, but for his support, for he was so weak to walk as fast as healthy people do. I could feel the hand was so frail around my arm, and.. it broke my heart...

After he was warded with no clear diagnosis from the doctors and the high fever which mostly struck him during night still prolong, we brought him to the alternative medication practitioners, ustaz and all, you name it and Alhamdulillah he was cured, gaining back the eating appetite, gaining his weight, as well as his nagging habits, if it is considered as an improvement.=)

That`s when I told him about my housewarming plan. I was so excited that he was back healthy and honoured him to arrange the festive with the people he knew. At that moment I felt the sense of pride of having parents in arranging big day for his kids. During the housewarming festive, I didn`t snap any picture of him. I don't know, but deep inside, there was a voice telling me that, if I snapped a picture of him, that might be the last picture of him in that fine health. I shoved the thought, and yet I didn't snap any picture of him. I refused to accept that thought.

Two weeks later when I was leaving to M.S Garden, I approached him while he slept, he looked restless, his hand warm, unusually warm. And when I asked him whether or not to bring Ika(who was crying to follow us) along, he said while closing his eyes " bawak la, sedih sangt tu" . I dont know why, but I started to feel that something was not right about his condition, and out of nowhere I shed tears, like it was so sad to leave him. And that was the point I noticed his condition started deteriorating. 

The following week- first week of Jan, his feet wobbled, he wasn't able to walk properly, but he still insisted to cycle to the town. That`s when people would go " Pokya meninggal? baru minggu lepas tgk naik basikal" upon knowing his passing. 

Week 2 of Jan, he started having short term memory lost. Mak said he would ask the same question again and again in one day. He asked about time, even though the clock was straight before his eyes. He insisted to join us sending my brother for his registration at Sekolah Teknik Wakaf Tembesu. He was getting weaker over days that he lied on my Mak`s lap at the backseat of my car along the trip to the school. Throughout the week, he kept on calling his kids who were at the hostel and campus. It didn't cross our mind that it was a sign of his departure.*sobs*.
Week 3 of Jan, his condition became worse, like overnight. His eyes closed tightly,completely losing his appetite, and only having plain water, nestum and tea-his favourite as food intakes. He lied on the bed, breathed hard, everytime Mak asked him to open his eyes, he opened, but I saw his sight dead. He wasnt actually looking at us even though he saw us. We decided to bring him to the hospital. And there, he was diagnosed as having infections at lungs and kidney.

My Mak, my brother and I took our turn to be there by his bed. When I was with him, I couldn`t hold my tears everytime I stroke his arm. It felt like the time chased us. Resting my head beside him was a peaceful moment with my father. During the night at 4am, my brother texted me to be ready,  telling me that there was high possiblity that Aboh will be sent to Hospital Kuala Terengganu. Another thing we dreaded most, that it is  a sign of worst thing was coming to us closer and closer.

My brother and I drove on our own, while Mak was on the ambulance. We reached the HKT at 6 in the morning, earlier than the ambulance. When he was brought out of the ambulance, that was when I saw Aboh opened his eyes to us, wide open. And that was the last I saw the eyes of my dear father.

6 hours waiting, feeling numb and when I closed my eyes, his images and memories replayed in mind, I cant help but started whimpering. Finally we were told that my father was already admitted in ICU long ago, that we haven't been told earlier. Doctor told us, all rectifications actions were made, but seeing his condition, the chances was slim. I recited Yaasin beside him, while glancing to monitor which indicated his heart beat- I think. Not even half way reciting, I saw the reading read 110 turned to 0. My father was gone. That was the hardest moment I ever faced in my entire life. 

Acceptance is the ultimate bliss. That is what I believe in. May Allah bless his soul. Al Fatihah.


Sunday, January 22

My Bachelor Pad- Story of a makeover

Having own house is definitely everyone`s dream, and it is no exception for myself. Year 2012 appears and I am now officially moving in my new bachelor pad. I am so delighted after all challenges and hardship, finally the efforts have paid off.....

......Errr,..the intro sounds so cliche. Ok, let`s go straight to the point about the entire story of this entry.

I have once written a wishlist about posessing a new house in this entry. And trust me, at the point of time when the wish was listed, it was merely what we called as 'wishful thinking'. What with the endless commitments that I have all around my waist, I was thinking that buying a house can only be accomplished at least after one or two years down the road.


Alhamdulillah, the rezeki came earlier than I thought. But but but, it was never an easy deal to get the house complete as it is.  One woman show with multiple conflicts, and yes, I am talking about  dealing with them who were hired to complete the house.

I bought it at 80% completion , certainly I was a bit nervous of the idea to find the right contractor in completing the house  100%, but we will never know how it goes until we try it, won't we? 

The plus side of buying unfinished house like this is that I could customize the panting and accesorize the house the way I wanted and how it suits to my taste. Hihi.  I bought this house somewhere in July 2011 and this is how it looked like.  Nak masuk pon kena redah lalang.

I was not really fancy the shocking yellow paint of the outer house, thus I changed it to this kuning kulit telur paint. And I started to grow some plants in the pot with the hope that it will last very very long with me.Wish right now.. wish right now~


Now welcome into the house.

The living room, dining room and family room are located at one hall. So this was how it looked like when I first bought it.Plain boring, white base, no? So what was the color of choice for the primary room of the house?


Yes, definitely pinky! I wonder if  one day when I left this house to be rented, is there any guys would want to stay in this pinky house? Kih kih kih. Ahh watevah!.... 

Most of the furnitures are the 'paid heritages' from Ju Zie. It feels like they were meant to be with me when they  were bought from the shop. Coincidentally they suit to the interior paints and the concept that I was having in mind.


This is the corner to the kitchen ,the third room and second bathroom.


When the renovation completed, voila!~ 


This picture was taken from the other side of the living room. Ah well, there are not many compartments in this house other than three rooms, kitchen and another toilet, anyway. Hehe.


After the transformation, here it looks like!

And lastly is the kitchen part.


I chose green painting for the kitchen. And as the result, it turned out as shocking green! and yet, somehow it is refreshing~

Ok, that was the end of the short tour around my house. There are plans that I have in mind in deco-ing the house, and yet it has to wait. The cash meter need to be raised back after months of draining them. Hihihih.

Tuesday, January 10

M.S. Garden, Kuantan

It was school break and reaching the year end, I was invited to attend PMMS Workshop at M.S. Garden Kuantan.  Situated in the heart of Kuantan city, the hotel is best stayed when I brought along my sisters. The shopping complex, Megamall is located next to the hotel, so I could save my worry of them being left starving when I was away in the meeting. Hihi.

The hotel room is spacious and with four of us staying in the room, it was just perfect!

This is the view from our room. Upon seeing the swimming pool on the next day after arrival, my two little sisters, Nadia and Ika were itching all day to jump into the pool! First time dapt mandi swimming pool sama sama katakan~

Out of boredom in the room while waiting for the pool area to be opened, this is what they did. Cam-whore! hihi.

While the sisters were having bread and fruits as their lunch, their big sister was having scrumptious delicacies in the restaurant downstairs. Keji kan? Haha.!

Well, it is obviously impossible for me to bring along my sisters with me everytime  I travel on business trips. But once in a while when the opportunity appears, it is such a wonderful sisterhood getaway.!

p.s : LOL when Ika pronounces it as  M titik S titik garden .*hiks*

Tuesday, January 3

M.A.C Deals

Do you know that you can get a free MAC lipstick when you returned six used MAC cosmetic items at their counter?

I have been using the cosmetics since last two years and it takes ages to finish. And guess what, the eyeshadows that I have first bought from the store and despite of using them daily, they are still there on dressing table, unfinished! Haha.

Nevertheless, I managed to get the six items to be exchanged with a new lipstick. Yes...only after TWO good years. But being in MAC store and when we are warmly entertained by the sales assistant, surely you will not be able to resist the temptation to buy more and more~ There goes the claim money for the trip. Ka-ching!

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